heee!

i got my cheshire back yesterday afternoon and he is so awesome!!! i gave him to rev mid-year and told her to go wild and do what she wanted with him and she definitely outdid herself. he's all galaxy themed! so cool! :D

on censorship in the doll community

i just said this to some friends regarding censorship in the doll community and think that it's pretty good words to describe the general censorship in the doll community:

you do realize that we are talking about the same place where people were allowed to go on a witch hunt over the film noir lawrence doll? the same group that, if you go against the flow, nine times out of ten you will be held down to drown? remember: 13+ forum (of repression), unless it is yaoi or some glorified "sexy" fantasy that the dowdy housewives will bite a finger and grip their pearls over in blind belief that it is romantic.

2015 so far...

well...at least it isn't totally crap. lots of work stuff. not enough energy/motivation to do stuff for/with dolls. meh.

thoughts

this year has been so busy that i've been missing many things. i've found that i've been less motivated to actually start on projects and actually finish things. so far this year i've spent the first three months stuck in project hell, then on post-project hell, followed by two trips, a number of work changes, catching up on work things, a really not fun work thing (that was thanks to a 3rd party software i work on), and then finally by a situation that has now been nixed but leaves an aftermath. top all of that off with various responsibilities, some tragedies, and my overall lack of energy and i've not really spent time doing anything. i sit and stare at facebook and maybe one or two other sites. i watch the tv. i try not to fall asleep at random, then i do just that. i dream things - both waking and asleep.

so far this year a small number of dolls have come in, a number of event heads have joined the pile, and only two dolls have been painted by me. i've not really sewn for them. i've bought some random things here and there for them. uncanny didn't happen as i have no time to plan it anymore so handed it off to someone else at the very start of the year. one of my dolls got painted by meiselmaus. (i probably totally spelled that wrong...most people would know them as something else anyway.) i miss the dolls despite them being all over the place in my tiny apartment.

i haven't edited photos for months. don't even have some of them moved to my computer from the cameras yet. i'm holding out hope that i will get to them in the ever-present "soon".

i've come to the conclusion that i need to figure out a strategy to get some things done that i want to do. there are plans afoot for next year and i want to be able to have some projects done in time for them. i need to reengage and reconnect with things in my life outside of work and simply slogging along in the ruts.

you don't need to care, but thanks for reading if you did. i just needed to get this out there for me. <3 p="">

august fashion

it's been a while since i've really made any posts here...i really want to get back to at least one good one a month as it helps to get my thoughts out there (even if only for myself). for now, you get a photo post! i got to have a good time earlier last week with a friend in town and play with our c-lines together. dante and faust are mine, but the chloe is her's.

ugh~

why does life seem to be so crazy lately? i feel like i've barely kept above water with everything going on, but it's been more that i'm just exhausted and somehow my evenings just go by way too fast. i mean really, how is it the end of may already? wasn't it just january? *sigh*

things i have to do in the next month: update uncanny thread on doa (already a week behind due to vacation and time just disappearing); make dummy of sard body for sewing; design pants for sard body; pack to (FINALLY) move back to my apartment; view space for uncanny with others; neighborhood garage sale day; move; unpack; release more information about things at uncanny; doll show; somehow fit in seeing friends and working on other projects; try not to say fuck it all and hermit.

yup, lots of stuff and somehow i'll make it through...oh well, at least all the stuff i've been doing at work has gotten me first runner up to employee of the month for march (or was it april? seriously, time getting away from me) and, just this past week, a promotion to senior customer service associate. no raise or really any bonus for any of it until the end of the year (thanks parent company!), but the recognition is good. right? sure.

on opinions in the hobby...

there are some people in this hobby i wish i could slap with a salmon...and then a frying pan...seriously, you are not an expert nor is your opinion the be all, end all. i respect your opinion, but stop preaching it like it is the only opinion people can have. if someone asks a question and people give answers, don't outright discount them because they aren't what you agree with. or don't jump in and tell someone how wrong they are because you think something is some way. most of all, don't speak as if you are an authority on what a company should do because they owe it to their customers.

disagree with me all you like, but check your facts, admit when you are wrong, and don't act like a jerk to someone because they are not 100% in line with what you have to say. because of people like that, there are more and more lurkers, there are confessions that can be pretty nasty or express being afraid to get into the hobby. there are people who are scared to step into discussions or go to meets, people who have had a bad experience and see this behavior and then assume that the rest of the people in the hobby are the same.

yes, i have my own opinions on things, but i try to be open to other opinions. i have had my mind changed about things i felt strongly on because i didn't immediately attack someone for having a difference of opinion. i let them speak and heard their argument; i learned and reformed my own opinion with that new knowledge. yes, i have participated in discussions and had my facts slightly off, but i have admitted i was wrong or apologized as needed and corrected my knowledge. i have watched as so much opined misinformation gets spouted as fact and my cautions and corrections are attacked that i mostly bite my tongue and don't comment anymore because saying things has done no good. i only offer my opinion publicly on most things anymore when asked and do not volunteer it freely.

all of this being said, think before you speak. if you are posting something about a company as a fact, check your facts first instead of posting conjecture as truth. don't brush someone's opinion off as wrong just because it is different, maybe they have greater experience or more facts about something than you.

if any of my followers or anyone reading this would like to engage in a discussion or has questions about anything, please feel free to contact me. if i don't know about something and can't answer a question, i'll try to point you in the right direction. if you simply wish to discuss something, i'm open to it. i like to share what small knowledge i have, meet people in the hobby, and learn from others' knowledge about things.

four years and seven months...

after this much time and two previous tries, it has finally happened. everything has fallen into place and azerian is finally compete. or, well, nearly...he still needs to be painted, but we all know how that went...so now all i have to do is clean up his head and paint him. after this much time i'm hoping that most of the yellowing is the old style msc i sprayed him with ages ago...but i kinda doubt it. i've no idea if he was cleaned up during his adventure to england or not...or what else may have occurred. if it is all or mostly him, i'll be trying to lighten him a little. can't wait until his body mellows some! i'm loving the f60 body, though, and am so happy to have it for him. it is the body i wanted for him all along. now to go buy more dollheart for him...

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long awaited

so at my first meet aaaages ago i saw a bluefairy and got to handle her. since then i've wanted a bluefairy may, but just somehow never got one. well, earlier this summer they had a special release for the baked skin marine may full set. i emailed them and waited for the drawing, partially fearful that i'd get her, partially that i wouldn't. i'd planned out getting a normal skin may sometime in august, so getting her early kinda put a kink in my plans - especially with the dollshe event. i got the email from bluefairy and debated maybe five minutes before deciding i'd go ahead and order her. she arrived on the 10th and i couldn't be happier!

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fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff!!!!!!

omg whyyyyyyyy? whyyyyyyyyyy fairyland????? whyyyyyyyyyyy? TAT right when i've bought the bf marine may.....right when i'm in the middle of a soom layaway....right when i'm in the midst of paying off a dollshe van....NOW is when you decide to release the feeple60 line?!?!?!?!?!? the line i've been waiting for FOREVER?!?!?!?!? DO YOU HATE ME????? *weeps in a corner, rocking all of the heads needing bodies*

dollshe...

i'm sure by now everyone has heard about how dollshe is doing yet another sale - this time as a staged final sale of his current sculpts. it's up to interpretation what it means: the end of dollshe? new sculpts and discontinuation of the current line? discontinuation of the current line, but possibly a return of the old "temporarily discontinued" sculpts? an entire revamp? who knows, dollshe is capricious. all i know is that i am finally getting one of my dream dolls: van.

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the worst part is when you name them...

seriously, it is... >_<

since fairyland released their tan c-lines i've wanted a rou in that particular color - even said it when those two were released. i want him to go along with dante. now, today, i've been playing with her and taking some photos since i finally have some c-line clothing (besides underwear and her default outfit), and i just thought up what his name would be. big mistake since now i'm gonna be waiting and hoping that they bring them back and do something special where they offer rou in tan. *sigh* that or i'll break down and get one in ws and have him dyed...which could fail miserably.

oh, his name you ask? it would be spiro faustus.

...why yes, i AM a huge nerd... >_>

just a quick note...

just a quick note to say that i'm still alive. i've not really been doing much other than looking for a new job, wasting time online, and reading books lately. there's a bunch of things i should probably do, but i just don't. that includes things that i really should have done some time ago but just can't seem to muster up the motivation for. the 21st marked year 4 come and gone. never did get around to taking year 3 pictures. anyway...

i am now older

tick tock goes the clock and i get older until it stops.

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the ever pressing wig question...

so the question that always seems to be asked every page or so in the minifee discussion on doa is "what size wig should i use?" or, well, some variation thereon. i've answered several times recently and, just now, answered yet again with the following:

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need for a new abjd category

so i was just looking over the new tin man po-11 from pipos and realized that it's part of a still emerging trend in bjds: automatons.

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azhrafael the fallen

this past weekend i got to visit with kasa and she asked i do an impromptu shoot of her sard, azhrafael. i obliged and here are the selected photos from the shoot. there are a few repeats as i played around with colors, i just wanted to post them all here. enjoy! ^_^

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lazy summer days

haven't been posting much of late, but i will continue to blame it on being busy. ;) in any case, have a photoshoot from today! :D

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been a long time

so i've been busy the past few months...missed a month of posting anything here for the first time in a long while. but, well, con and then uncanny dream took over my life. now life is just being blah...lots to do, little motivation. XD

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post-con rambling

so sakura-con was this past weekend. lots of fun and hanging out with friends. there were thankfully more good times than bad. i was somewhat miserable, though, thanks to major allergies all last week. :(

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