December 27, 2015

December

wow! this December has been crazy! I've been away from home/work for half of the month - first off to Florida to visit disneyworld with a friend and attend a couple of friends wedding. all super fun and holy summer-like weather! I took over 1000 photos on the trip!

next it's been back home for a few weeks to visit my dad. it is still strange to be home without mom around. I'm sure it'll be that way for a while yet, but it is also a little nice since we don't have to contend with caregivers or needing to drop what we are doing every few minutes to change pages in what she is reading. dad is doing okay, but I'm sure we are still going to be chatting nearly every day on the phone for quite some time to come. 

anyway, plenty of projects to do! *scutries off to work on them.*

November 30, 2015

eeee!

eight days until disney! :D so excite! friends are getting married, i get to go someplace warm, get to hang out with sillylady, get to have fuuuuuuuuuuun! :D

October 30, 2015

pale white

pale white
your skin tonight
reminds me of the shrouding fog
at dawn

September 20, 2015

feeling.

there's a feeling. i want that feeling. it will never be mine again.

August 29, 2015

2am:630am

she walks now - again - in whatever afterlife there is, even if it is none.

July 30, 2015

figuring it out...

the first year of the plagues the priests said it was god's divine punishment. they claimed it was a test of our faith and that those who succumbed were sinners. the second year the priest in our village burned down the church where the sick were being taken care of and ran into the woods yelling about demons coming for his soul.

they found his twisted body two weeks later, bloated and showing the tell-tale signs of sickness, neck at an unnatural angle from his fall down a small cliff.

slowly we returned to the old ways of our ancestors. the priest's god had not saved him and was by no means a mercy or comfort to us. the old gods, spirits, and creatures of lore were more certain and benevolent by far.

by the third year, when the spring rains brought with them news of yet more plague spreading, we barricaded the road and did not allow strangers into our village. we had fared better than most the previous years, but we refused to take any chances. while the rest of the world slowly died, we tried our hardest to persevere.

June 30, 2015

it's hot...

where are we? cali? wtf? it's been nice weather since sometime in may with very little rain or cloudy days. nopw we have a heat wave and it isn't even juy 5th yet!!! this summer is gonna suuuuuuuuuuuck!

May 31, 2015

blah

so much of a malaise lately. i just can't get fully motivated for much of anything. i've managed to read quite a bit - three books and a few manga in two weeks, which shouldn't be amazing, but, really, it is. i need to work at clearing up things in my apartment since i've really stopped caring the past year or so and thus am left with things just sitting out that should be put away.

*shrug* i guess i'll eventually get some motivation for more than a few minutes.

April 13, 2015

on the next election

one of my canadian friends posted an article about police being america's terrorists and said that they bet current issues like police abuse of power won't be talked about in the election. my response was one that i felt needed to be saved for posterity as i've been trying to figure out how to put my finger on what's-his-idiotic-face's "taking back america" slogan:

of course it won't be. it's going to be another "us vs. them", fear based election centered around things like healthcare. there's not really a big-ticket item emerging just yet, but i think that that one idiot is running on the "i think that it is 1864 and am running on the ass-backwards, nee confederate, ticket" platform.

March 30, 2015

dark things come clear in poetry

those dark secrets
that seep out of the cracks
and turn your thoughts black
with the decay of a lifetime.

February 28, 2015

on censorship in the doll community

i just said this to some friends regarding censorship in the doll community and think that it's pretty good words to describe the general censorship in the doll community:

you do realize that we are talking about the same place where people were allowed to go on a witch hunt over the film noir lawrence doll? the same group that, if you go against the flow, nine times out of ten you will be held down to drown? remember: 13+ forum (of repression), unless it is yaoi or some glorified "sexy" fantasy that the dowdy housewives will bite a finger and grip their pearls over in blind belief that it is romantic.

January 31, 2015

2015 so far...

well...at least it isn't totally crap. lots of work stuff. not enough energy/motivation to do stuff for/with dolls. meh.