i am now older

tick tock goes the clock and i get older until it stops.

so i haven't been blogging much. there hasn't really been all that much going on. what's happened since i last really wrote anything? pretty much nothing. i had two weeks away busy with family/holiday stuff right after work ended, then a week with a good friend visiting, after that it's been a life full of a lot of sitting around on my computer looking for jobs, looking at my usual forums, and watching tv. i really am not an interesting person.

i did order and received my leekeworld ariana. she was the first doll ordered this year due to their sale and because i just couldn't resist getting her. i ended up getting her and eyelashes (plus extra) for the next doll for less than it would have been to order just her without the sale. yay! she arrived a week later by surprise! i really wasn't expecting her sooner than march due to the amount of time they had listed, so that was a super happy surprise! i also ordered a bronze skin vesuvia when the soom special order event opened. i was safe when it was just her head...but then they added the body and i did some serious thinking. pretty much my decision boiled down to the fact that i can resell her for costs at least if it comes down to it, plus tan (bronze being a tone of tan) is one of the colors that i can actually do what i want with her in, and finally the fact that i wouldn't have to try and get one at after market prices. the last two were the biggest factors. i have wanted vesuvia since she first came out, but the lavender pearl resin just wasn't the right color - no matter what anyone says about it being grey in photos. white, grey, or tan were the best choices and i can live with tan despite it being third on the list. in fact, it may end up that it was the best color all along! so yeah, paying her off and waiting is all that is left.

otherwise it's a lot of applying for jobs and hearing nothing back. life is just gonna keep being this way for a while i guess. i'm thankfully not going stir-crazy yet for all the time i spend alone and cooped up in my apartment. i've gotten out to a few doll meets, hung out with friends a time or two - one friday of which was quite great as i got to eat a bunch of yummy food, got my first manicure, and then got to try out archery for the first time (i'm a pretty good shot for a first timer if i do say so, even if i can't shoot exactly like i was instructed to). i've had things to do that i should have had done months ago and i should have cleaned up my apartment majorly by now, but january went by and feburary is chugging along and i just don't feel all that motivated. it's probably some depression. probably also that i just really want to relax and not be stressed. oh well, eventually something will get done!

on top of all of this, i'm working away on uncanny for this year. i've taken charge this year and have finally gotten reliable volunteers to help with the planning recently. things are going along and i just need to square some more things away before anything else is done. i can't wait until everything is in the right spot and we can move forward even further!

anyway...i'm gonna try and muster up the energy to go out and get something to eat as a special treat to myself. happy valentine's day. woo. -_-

things i am this year: alone, unemployed, full of the usual depression, an afterthought.