bittersweet and hate

so I just got some bad news that leaves me in a state of not knowing if I want to be bittersweet or just weep over the whole thing...turns out Lynsey will not really be able to do azerian. she's just too busy with work apparently. he's been away to her since the start of march and, with all that happened before that to just get to the point that he went off to her, well, it has now been nearly a year in the offing. if you add the time since knowing that I would be purchasing him and having her do his faceup, that right there is very nearly two years. at this point I just don't know what to do. I don't know if I want him sent home for me to find someone else to bring him to life or if I want to take up on her offer to still keep him and maybe be able to finish after the new year. from what she said, I don't think that she's all too keen on going that route.

I think I just want to cry and scream and hate the world right now.

however, that hate is not the one in the title. the one in the title is for the idiot girl who has been coming to the meets since this summer and has made herself very unwelcome. she's not a very bright or nice person to be around. constant fear of broken or stolen or otherwise damaged dolls abounds. just a very bad situation. anyways, she's been jerking everyone around whining about how she's going to have to move and now suddenly isn't moving. she's now posted confirmation that she will be at the meet tomorrow. great. just what I need, a good dose of retard to round out everything. T_T

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just...fu•k.