ugh~

why does life seem to be so crazy lately? i feel like i've barely kept above water with everything going on, but it's been more that i'm just exhausted and somehow my evenings just go by way too fast. i mean really, how is it the end of may already? wasn't it just january? *sigh*

things i have to do in the next month: update uncanny thread on doa (already a week behind due to vacation and time just disappearing); make dummy of sard body for sewing; design pants for sard body; pack to (FINALLY) move back to my apartment; view space for uncanny with others; neighborhood garage sale day; move; unpack; release more information about things at uncanny; doll show; somehow fit in seeing friends and working on other projects; try not to say fuck it all and hermit.

yup, lots of stuff and somehow i'll make it through...oh well, at least all the stuff i've been doing at work has gotten me first runner up to employee of the month for march (or was it april? seriously, time getting away from me) and, just this past week, a promotion to senior customer service associate. no raise or really any bonus for any of it until the end of the year (thanks parent company!), but the recognition is good. right? sure.

my piece...

over the past 13 years we have become a society steeped in fear; overshadowed by nebulous threat; and fed on hatred. we are told that there are those out to get us and that, because of that, it is okay to act with whatever malice we feel towards those who are different. we place blame and point fingers, being told it is okay to do so and to ignore our own contributions and faults. we are all guilty of some form of tacit acceptance of the way things are today, even if we are outspoken either to the good or the detriment - intelligently in our rhetoric, or blindly in our lashing out.

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sometimes i write things

Strong, tanned fingers marched along pale cream curves to end their journey in a dark ebony forest. There they tangled and caught, pulling back the waves of silken hair to expose a soft expanse of porcelain neck. Lips brushed along that expanse and moved in a slow beat down to where neck met shoulder. There they leaped from the ledge of collarbone to tease pert nipples with tooth and tongue. The fingers trailed across salt white plains, edging ever closer to the lush jungle and its hidden spring of pleasure.

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another year gone...

another year older...yay for yet another birthday. at least this year i have a job. it was rather uneventful and boring as per usual. people always seem surprised that my friends aren't taking me out and that i'm doing nothing for it. then i basically just say that it's valentine's day and everyone is busy doing other things and the look appears on their face as they realize that everyone is off doing other things.

add to this that the meet for this weekend was cancelled and i can't think of anywhere to have it instead since chinatown is out due to new year celebrations. *sigh* oh well, guess i don't need anything to really look forward to or do this weekend. i don't really need to see friends that i only get to see maybe once a month. u_u

oh well. off to bed i guess. another birthday down with only calls from my family and some platitudes from people at work who were told it was my birthday and the usual small round of notes on facebook. i know people mean it, but after all these years it just feels so empty. "happy birthday (i have better things to do)." >_>

i've not been very active here or anywhere really except for keeping up with my post a day on tumblr. there really hasn't been much going on in my life anyway. christmas was good, cons are coming up in march, work is work and has taken over my life. i'm slowly working on uncanny for this year as well. i had a three day weekend this weekend and didn't really accomplish anything. yeah, that's how awesome my life is. i've been accomplishing less in my life than when i was unemployed a year ago. such a cheery thought.

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