can has holiday?

too much work.

dying.

send life.

need friends.

halp.

goodbye 2013

so, it's retrospective time here at pale with horror. 2013 has been a pretty rough year for me. the death toll is up this year among family and friends, as well as family of friends. there were highs, there were lows, but it mostly is a blur. sadly i feel like it should still be september - the year has just gone by that fast for me. i'd like to say that i spent the year having so much fun that it went quickly, but it is more that it has been a blur of work.

.:more after the jump:.

kindnesses

as i was walking home today from my bus i noticed two men wandering along one of the new bus stops on broadway. they encountered the temporary barrier and walked around it, then down the bus stop as i passed them along the sidewalk and went across the street. i kept an eye on them while i waited for the light to change so i could continue on my way.

they came to the end of the bus stop and could not decide where to go at first. i decided to go back and see if they needed help. as i crossed back over the street and headed towards them they left the stop and headed back towards the sidewalk, but instead veered aside, traveling up the bike lane, lost. i sprinted to catch them before they encountered a vehicle and tapped the taller man on his arm politely. he took my hand and then told his friend to talk to me.

i asked if they needed help to find where they were going and he told me that they were attempting to find 8oz burger bar. i told him that i could take them there and led them to the sidewalk then down to the intersection where we crossed union and broadway. along the way the man asked me what was going on that had caused them such confusion. i confirmed that there was construction going on and that they had ended up at a bus stop across the bike lanes from the sidewalk. it's all kind of confusing, i told him, and that we are all getting used to the new changes. he told me that they were going to 8oz for the first time and i told him that the food there is delicious which he was glad to hear.

we arrived at the restaurant doors and they thanked me as we parted ways, strangers still, but two nice men in my memories, a polite touch and kind voice in theirs.

in this season of thankfulness, warm fuzzies, and gift giving i urge everyone to remember to be kind, notice when others need help, and to take the small amount of time out of your life to be there for someone who needs it. we make the world a better place by our actions, no matter how small. even a smile can make someone's day all the brighter and change it for the better.

fireball

as I started my walk to the bus this morning, a flickering in the east caught my eye. as I watched, the blue-white flicker approached, hazy and softened through the light cloud cover, but burning bright at its heart. in a matte of moments it had streaked directly above my head and passed along to the west on its journey - down through the atmosphere and into the ocean or skipping past and spinning back away into the solar system, I do not know. perhaps it burned so brightly that it expired before touching down, it's heart gone cold.

on new phones

so, all i want is a new phone. i've had mine for four years and was going to get a new one last year until my brother took my upgrade (one of the few times i've given in on something, mostly because i just wasn't in the mood to argue). so i put off getting one as i would need to use my dad's upgrade, but we kept not having time when i was home and i decided to wait for the next version as there were some things i did not like about the newest out at the time.

now here i am and i can't get the phone i want because no one has it in stock. i don't want the phone so that i can have the newest gadget that's all bright and shiny and use it as a status symbol - i want the fucking thing because my current phone needs to be replaced. what happens, though? no one knows when they'll get one in a shipment because they are sent random boxes of things. (yes, yes, supply and demand and all that total cock of bs.) the assholes of the world are allowed to walk into a store and purchase more than five phones so that they can then go and resell at outrageous prices. the stores can't reliably get anything in. i'm left in a bitchy mood for the past week because i can't get myself a phone. ordering online is out because of the hassle that would cause with the phone numbers involved in the upgrade and not wanting to change our service agreement.

ugh!