thoughts

this year has been so busy that i've been missing many things. i've found that i've been less motivated to actually start on projects and actually finish things. so far this year i've spent the first three months stuck in project hell, then on post-project hell, followed by two trips, a number of work changes, catching up on work things, a really not fun work thing (that was thanks to a 3rd party software i work on), and then finally by a situation that has now been nixed but leaves an aftermath. top all of that off with various responsibilities, some tragedies, and my overall lack of energy and i've not really spent time doing anything. i sit and stare at facebook and maybe one or two other sites. i watch the tv. i try not to fall asleep at random, then i do just that. i dream things - both waking and asleep.

so far this year a small number of dolls have come in, a number of event heads have joined the pile, and only two dolls have been painted by me. i've not really sewn for them. i've bought some random things here and there for them. uncanny didn't happen as i have no time to plan it anymore so handed it off to someone else at the very start of the year. one of my dolls got painted by meiselmaus. (i probably totally spelled that wrong...most people would know them as something else anyway.) i miss the dolls despite them being all over the place in my tiny apartment.

i haven't edited photos for months. don't even have some of them moved to my computer from the cameras yet. i'm holding out hope that i will get to them in the ever-present "soon".

i've come to the conclusion that i need to figure out a strategy to get some things done that i want to do. there are plans afoot for next year and i want to be able to have some projects done in time for them. i need to reengage and reconnect with things in my life outside of work and simply slogging along in the ruts.

you don't need to care, but thanks for reading if you did. i just needed to get this out there for me. <3 p="">

been a long time

so i've been busy the past few months...missed a month of posting anything here for the first time in a long while. but, well, con and then uncanny dream took over my life. now life is just being blah...lots to do, little motivation. XD

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amber finally completed!

so it ended up taking me about three days...after a year and about five months since her arrival. -_- anyway, i used an airbrush for the first time ever when doing her. my application to a 3-d surface leaves something to be desired, but i did as well as i expected. had to redo everything, though, since the first attempt i was trying stuff out and being lazy by the end. yeah...anyway, everyone who has seen her face and commented has said how much they really like her. :D on top of that, now that i have her restrung, she's standing better and more solidly than before, and her arms are holding better. i know it is a combination of tightening her stringing some and the msc, but the modification that i made to her knees (especially the right one) have helped immensely and she is standing pretty much like a rock. :) so happy to finally have her done...and a special thanks again to her "fairy godmother" miss ally for helping me to obtain her two years ago now (has it really been that long?)!

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seems like forever

so, it seems like forever since i've written anything here - and, really, it has been. lately it just feels worthless to do much, if anything, here. i haven't been editing photos to put up (which i should) and i haven't been taking any new ones really (again, i should, but weekends are the only time i have when it is light out at this time of year and i am typically trying to get other things done). *sigh* whatever.

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listing

so it's been a while since i've really blogged on here. i've been meaning to for quite a while, but life gets in the way. well...work does mostly...

so anyway. i'm still waiting on beefcake and replacement shoes. the shoes only just made it back to korea thanks to the weirdness of international shipping. i mean, wtf? two weeks??? -_- i checked in on beefcake with the company to find out when he should ship out as it has been 50 business days since order/payment and was told that they will be shipping him the third week of july with expected arrival to me the fourth week. great. i'm gone when they expect him to arrive to me! suck.

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i've forgotten...

...what i was going to say. i've been so busy lately that every blog post i've meant to do has been forgotten before i could even start.

today i did a movie double header with a friend. we saw the a-team and then prince of persia. the a-team was so awesome! they did great with the casting - everyone was as close in looks and spot-on with the characters as possible. they had references and homages to the original series, the story was updated perfectly (unlike in some cases where it is just faaaar too out of place to do so), and i was pretty much wanting to cheer all the way through. :) as for prince of persia, it was wonderful. lots of beautiful shots, a good script, great adaptation from the game, and omg jake. hawt! both movies had scott pilgrim vs the world previews - each different. you know it's bad when you can quote along with a trailer that you've maybe seen once before and you've not read the comic in several years... -_- *is sooooooooooooooooooo excited for the movie!* also saw a trailer for tron! yay! so gonna see it! and there was an older airbender trailer...but i'm so going to that anyway! :)

on the doll front i'm still waiting on beefcake. *sigh* hopefully he arrives home soon...i'm sick of waiting! abadon has been and gone off for a full treatment. i'm a little over half done with my layaway on him (yay for buying dolls from friends). i've sent him off last weekend with kasa so she can work on him soon. i can't wait! he's so much more awesome in person. :) and the armor? omg! it's wonderfully detailed!!! kasa has her work cut out for her, but i think it is something that she will enjoy doing. i did get in my leeke order on monday and can't be happier with the wigs. they're both gorgeous! the colors are so awesome! the spring mint one even matches one of my wigs for lolita! :D also got an order from bambicrony. suuuuuper fast shipping there! paypal hadn't even confirmed the payment went through and it shipped out! sadly, the shoes i'd ordered came in the wrong size. i'd love to keep them, but really need the size i ordered them in. i will more than likely order the size i got in the future. (i sent them back today.)

hopefully i can do a nine9 style order soon. then i have group orders planned for dollmore and luts this summer. really hope those are successful...

oh! total awesomeness last weekend! i found the unoa freak 2 book at kinokuniya!!! :D sooooo happy! i so want more pattern books. especially ones for slim minis. what i really should do is just start making more of my own.

okay...sleep time now i think...up early and busy day, now sleepy. :)

two years along...

so today is the two year anniversary of winter and azerian arriving. currently they are stuck away in my doll bag as i've been kept busy the past few days. that's okay though, i've decided to postpone the yearly pictures for this year as one of my dolls is out being done up.

yes, that's right, azerian is home! he arrived back on january 25th and has pretty much been hogging demaius's body ever since. i missed him so much and am so sad that he is currently still blank. i don't think i'm going to be sending him out for quite some time just because i have a ton of other dolls to work on, and i really want him home for a while.

as for the one that i'm delaying photos for...well...chade is currently away with candygears for a complete faceup and body blushing. she's working on him and, once he returns home, i will be taking the photos. the delay shouldn't really be more than a few weeks, so that is okay in my book. i've been in the process instead this weekend of working on the various pictures that i have pending. i've managed to pull all the photos off my camera from the past month or so and have been working at making sure that i have all the shoots set out that i need to get up from the past year. that should get me through until chade is back. :)

i will have to try and post again this week and recap what fun i had this past week, but for now, i need to get going! so much to do, so little time! <3 all my dolls and can't believe that i have 23 (including floating heads, not including various extra bits) home and am waiting on another! (oh yeah...waiting on bodies for the three floating minifee heads and a mnf rheia! more about that later!) taaa~

it's been a while...

so it's been a while since i last put anything here. i've been kinda busy and then lazy when i'm not. hmm...let's see...i need to put up a year one photo as february 21 marked one year since winter and azerian arrived. at the moment, azerian is off to england for a faceup, i've finally got eyes for him, and his body shipped out just after midnight my time from fairyland. i'm very VERY excited to see him coming together. :) along with his body will be arriving a dreaming vamp moon head and a 2008 juri head. neither has a name and i'm pretty sure the juri will be the companion to my heliot. also, chester's body will be home soon as well as it shipped out to bunnie in the last week as well.

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an observance or two...

people are retarded.

today has been a horrible day. the culmination of a stressed out weekend.

it's really wonderful when people don't know how to do things that they should have learned how to do in high school at the least. things that i learned in elementary school. things that aren't really all that hard to understand. things that i shouldn't get a response of "it's the same thing" when it really isn't.

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the new face of chester

so i finished off chester's eye mods wednesday night and did a faceup for him...the little grump already flew face first into my keyboard and botched it, but i'm gonna be redoing it anyway, so no big deal. i think i need a little bit browner chalk pastel instead of the redder one...makes him look kinda sunburned... >_<

i can has shipping?

yes i can! :D soooo happy that luts finally posted a tracking number for my package. no more worrying that they're going to take until next week to ship everything out. what does this mean? it means shoes! glorious shoes! mauahahahahahahhaahahahahhaha! *dies* X(

*cough* ahem...so...yeah...shoes for ks, shoes for me...other stuffs for me... XD and i'm so happy that it'll be here in time for the meet on the 25th.

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