can has holiday?

too much work.

dying.

send life.

need friends.

halp.

my piece...

over the past 13 years we have become a society steeped in fear; overshadowed by nebulous threat; and fed on hatred. we are told that there are those out to get us and that, because of that, it is okay to act with whatever malice we feel towards those who are different. we place blame and point fingers, being told it is okay to do so and to ignore our own contributions and faults. we are all guilty of some form of tacit acceptance of the way things are today, even if we are outspoken either to the good or the detriment - intelligently in our rhetoric, or blindly in our lashing out.

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falling apart

so it's been a little over a month since i last posted, but it has gone by so fast. my schedule now causes work to take up so much of my life that the days blur together. this is also the first weekend in a while that i haven't been out doing things. in the past month i've spent my weekends out and about seeing the tut exhibit, at doll meets, and at doll shows. i've been so busy on the weekends that i finally had to decide not to go anywhere this one. sadly, that meant i gave up going to steam-con yet again. but i won't be sad about that as going even for a day would have done more harm than good (i couldn't really move yesterday morning due to immense pain in my lower back - like, crippling pain).

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today is...

a day I feel more and more like I shouldn’t have bothered leaving my apartment. it’s just been weird person after weird person and stuff. right now I’m supposedly at a meet that started 30 minutes ago…but I’m the only person here. u_u yeah, maybe I shouldn’t have left my apartment…things will get better from here, I have my apple snow and will get delicious food and enjoy myself despite everyone not being here!

on ouat theories

so there are a bunch of ouat theories out there that i’ve been reading since the last episode that seem to be focusing on rumplestiltskin knowing something more than someone normally would, on the potions being either part of the curse or not, and on snow and charming being the key in that their true love is what rumple was able to bottle. there’s also the timeline someone put together of the eps in chronological order according to the fairytale storyline (sorry, forgot where it is as i saw it right after skin deep). the point was made that in the chronological story rumple becomes more miserable and more of an alcoholic as the story progresses. i don’t generally put out my own theories on things, but i’ve been thinking a lot about these things…

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to that final frontier...

i just watched a video of neil de grasse tyson talking about nasa and its budget. the whole time i sat here trying not to be sad because we have basically pulled out of the space race.

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just a quick note...

just a quick note to say that i'm still alive. i've not really been doing much other than looking for a new job, wasting time online, and reading books lately. there's a bunch of things i should probably do, but i just don't. that includes things that i really should have done some time ago but just can't seem to muster up the motivation for. the 21st marked year 4 come and gone. never did get around to taking year 3 pictures. anyway...

let it snow!

people don't seem to understand how much i love the snow. if i had it my way, it would snow all winter long. snow is just beautiful and happiness for me. i don't like when people go tromping through the few pristine spots outside my window just to be assholes, or the ugly sanded roads, but i can live with it. nor do i like the traffic snarls it causes, but that's not the point. i love watching it fall, the silence of the world and the music of the flakes as they hit the window or whatever is covering my head when outside. i love that strange light that only comes with snow. there's nothing like being out in the middle of a normally busy place and just experiencing that all alone - though i love being out in the middle of nowhere with the snow more.

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a dream that won't go away

last night i had a dream. it won't go away. it won't leave me alone. it's wanted me back.

and i've wanted it.

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uninspired and uninspiring

i can't help but feel like there's no point for me to even try sometimes. even on as nice and relaxing a day as today the feeling persists.

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on and on...

so it's been a while...and i keep telling myself that i need to post up a blog. um...a lot has happened, and yet not much. work is the same old, same old. my ass is getting kicked up one side and down the other by life, etc etc.

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at it again

this time with a mock of my amber...only, she has long ears and hooves

aural vampire squee

i got to go to an awesome show tonight after spending the day out and about seattle freezing my ass off in lolita. we went to picasso at SAM and then sushi. then saw aural vampire play! (with two other bands and the birthday massacre.) omg <3!!!! exo-chika and raveman are awesome! exo-chika returned heart hands sign to kasa during the show and i took a ton of photos. and then we got to meet them for signatures and all and omg. squeeeeee! <3 spotted exo-chika later rocking out to the birthday massacre, then raveman after the show was hanging around and i gave him heart hands and he returned the gesture and was sooooooooo cutely embarrassed! XD eeeeee! so awesome!!!!!! and omg exo-chika said she liked my fangs several times while we were getting pictures with them!!!! XD and there was squishies! and cute things! and omg! *dies of (rare) happy fangirling*

nuuurrrrr

i just saw the midnight showing of harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1. i froze in line waiting for it, was in the background of a bunch of media shots, and had random weird little convos with the people around me. they gave us free popcorn while we waited. i froze. i waited from 730 until they finally let us in at just before 11pm. still confused as to why they only had one ticket taker. there's display cases with costumes now...they have a tron outfit. i'm so tired. i walked home because it was too late for a bus. some stupid girl and her boyfriend were behind me on the up hill portion of the trek. they kept being stupid talking about the movie. then they got in front of me about half way up and i pretty much got an eyeful of gross fat ass and panties. right where my natural spot of focus is to boot, so it was hard to walk along all tired and have to concentrate on looking elsewhere. the movie was great. i can't wait for the next one. yes, this was a total coincidence that i have friday off. i took it off for a day of getting some things sorted out, and then realized about a week later that the hp premier and reopening of the cinerama was tonight. total added bonus. especially since i'd not been to a midnight premier in ages. the last time was probably some other harry potter movie or was the last lotr one. i can't remember. i sleep now.

were we angels after all?

i want to be lost in the dream...

a story

i wrote a story the other day. this means that, if someone asks me if i've written anything during nanowrimo, i can say yes, yes i have, i wrote a story about a cat. XD

story time!

Meet Fred.
Fred is a cat.
Fred likes to nap.
Naps in the sun
are lots of fun.
Fred plays tag with bugs,
and rolls around on the rug.
He chases mice
and laser lights.
Fred hates fleas, getting wet
and trips to the vet.
He watches the fish,
eats from a cute dish,
and watches the birds outside.
He cleans his face with his paws
and stalks jingling balls.
He won't wear a hat
(see last Christmas for that).
He purrs and he sheds
while he messes up the bed.
A quick scratch at the chair,
climb up the curtains,
hide on the top of the door
to swat at someone's hair.
Then off Fred goes
running, jumping, ricocheting,
bouncing around the house
before settling down.
Yak in some favored shoes,
then the center of the living room floor.
A dignified meow
to get some food.
Fred does all of these things
many times and more
but always ends
with a sprawl on the floor.

it's not very good, but meh, whatever. *shrug*

...and now for something completely different...

XD

...and yet again...

seriously, so much fun....

...and again...

^_^

too much fun part two...

did another one. this time with eris in mind!